Dear Luke,
Well kiddo, you are the most beautiful young man I have ever seen. You will be 11 months old next month and I have seen you only on two occasions, for a grand total of five weeks.
You know I typed a letter to your unborn sister Kalen once. This letter brings up Myspace Blog memories. I asked to have a little girl for a long time but when I first saw your face I could not help the emotion that came over me, the trembling was real for me.
I was very happy that you came and very happy that I chose your mother. The first time I saw your mother I knew I wanted her to be the mother of my child. Your mother was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen in my life. Your mother also was the best mother I knew, besides your grandma.
I write you letters from time to time because I am not able to see you and it helps me deal with not being there for you at the present time. I will sit and write you full well knowing that you will not read the letters for years down the road. I truly hope that my letters will find you well.
I will keep the letters or give them to your Grandma Andy Andy or Grandpa John John so they can give them to you once you are old enough to understand. Their is also a chance you will read them in my presence.
I watch you grow up through video and pictures. Watching you grow up away from me is torture of the worst kind for a first time father. Trust me when I express to you, I love you. Forgive me for not being there now, your father is not well and your mother and me do not get along at all presently.
One day you will learn that a relationship takes work and is always 50 percent your fault if it does not work. Women are going to be loving you when you get older, they already do now!
Your mom and I did good, we made you and you are beautiful!
You are the youngest of four. Please go easy on your big sisters and brother, they will look after you especially since you are the little brother. Please respect your mom, she gave birth to you afterall. As for me, I will be here for you as much as I am able and as much as your mother will allow me to.
I have done many things I am not proud of in my life Luke. Who knows if this site will exist when you are old enough to read and understand. In the case this site does not exist you will have many letters to understand where your dad has been and where he believes he will go.
The year 2011 has been a year to remember and forget. The year 2011 is the year he saw you and you are beautiful.
I will always love your mom, she to me is the most beautiful woman on this planet; she gave me you.
Kalen still rests but you are here and you are perfect. I will see you after Christmas and I could not be more excited for that. I promise to work on my health so I can be a better dad to you. My friends express to me that you will not remember these early years. If that is the case I am not at a total loss and I can work to be there for those years that you will remember.
Like the letters I pen, this letter trips me out because I am typing to the older you. I want you to know that I loved you from the first time I saw you, held you, kissed you. I will love you past my last breath young man.
I love you Luke.
Dad